Random Thoughts on Fifth Avenue....

So much randomness going on today, this post is gonna go everywhere...........

#1: I was talking to Twin last night trying to psych myself into coming out to Columbia Girl today and ultimately I did not go through with it. Blahhhhhhhh! As usual, my excuse is that it did not feel right, but will it ever really feel right? I don't think so....so basically I think that is just a cheap cop out that I've been using that I just am not gonna allow myself to use anymore. I mean, according to PR Boy she basically knows...or strongly suspects....so why even bother anymore? I dunno....kinda don't want to think about it right now anymore, it makes me truly upset.

#2: I was sitting in my bed last night, thinking about the situation that I have with my boss...needless to say I really didn't sleep that much.

Sensible K has won out and I decided that I am not gonna pursue him or take my thoughts any further....i'm just gonna kill it right now.

Thanks for everyone who left me their thoughts and opinions on my last post....but really sitting down thinking about it, I realized that I probably had made up my mind even before I found out for sure that he was gay that I wouldn't allow myself to get involved in a situation like that. He is my boss and it would be unprofessional of me to try to make a move on him. Furthermore, upon closer inspection of his Connexion account, I realized that even if I was brazen enough to pursue him, there would be no way on God's Green Earth that he would ever go for me. None at all! And I can say that with 99% absolute confidence. Looking at his friends page was like flipping through my Details magazine...or more appropriately, DNA Magazine. To make matters even worse, over 80% of his friends (I did the math) are in Banking, whether it is Investment Banking or Hedge Fund Managing..etc etc, you get the idea. The other 20% consist of Lawyers, Physicians and other clearly well off individuals. Now you might be asking yourself, "K, why is this relevant?" Well it is because the people that you willingly associate with say a lot about the person you are in my personal opinion. Now, I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with having these types of people as friends...on the contrary it is a good thing to surround yourself with successful people because it pushes you to be better yourself. However, it does speak to the type of guy that he is looking for, and it aint me...let me tell you!

At work I will just try not to look at him too long and hope he doesn't hover over me with that amazing body of his. I can get over him within a week, trust me......I am good at self-regulation.

#3: I went to the New York Public Library today to study and let me tell you......what a beautiful building! Not so much from the outside, but inside....it is just really striking with marble and gold leaf everywhere and the paintings were truly spectacular. I almost felt like I was back in Europe for a second. And the reading room on the 3rd floor is humongous! It totally puts Library West to shame.

#4: Speaking of UF....Auburn can go suck a fuckin big ass cock! And that is all I have to say about those country-ass motherfuckers! (reached my cuss word quota for the evening)

#5: Back to New York.....can I just say that Trump Tower on 5th Avenue is honestly one of the ugliest and imposing buildings that I have ever seen. It is just so big and out of place, no wonder people in SoHo are bitching about the new condo he is trying to build in the neighborhood. That man might be rich, but he has no taste whatsoever.....that building is atrocious. And Donald, you really need to get some people to water those trees that you have coming from the side of the building....some of them were so brown that I thought they were tumbleweeds upon first glance.

#6: Abercrombie and Fitch, you needn't put such 1/2 naked male models outside your flagship store to cause accidents on the street. It is truly irresponsible, specially the one who clearly didn't have any underwear on and was wearing supreme, lo-cut jeans. I am pretty sure I saw pubes...and while I am not complaining, I would hate for you to get sued by some chick, or gay man who accidently crashes into something (or someone) while ogling at those FIONE ass guys out there.

#7: This is gonna come out incredibly heartless and callous but I really want someone to explain to me why I catch at least 7 out of 10 panhandlers on the streets of NYC smoking. Do you know that I went into a corner store the other day and almost passed out when I saw that cigarettes were 8 DOLLARS A PACK! Now I am not a smoker, but you betcha that those prices would make me quit ASAP! So my question is, if you are so destitute that you have to ask for change on the street, how do you find the money to buy cigarettes? People really need to make a little bit better decisions in my opinion.

And on that note, I am gonna cut this baby short. The new season of Brothers and Sisters starts in a couple of minutes and I have been literally waiting FOR MONTHS to watch it! Definitely the best new drama on television as far as I am concerned. And apparently Uncle Saul is one of us! Can't wait to see how that story line is gonna play out.

Night night!